IN MY DEATH BED

WHAT WILL BE THE LAST WORD WHEN YOU ARE LYING TO DIE.

THIS IS A SMALL INCIDENT WITH MY GRAND PA.

I remember what my mom said about the dead of grand pa. At that time it was time for dinner and they (father and mother) were waiting for my grand pa. Grand pa came and said,” I am feeling uncomfortable today, so let’s have dinner outside in the open sky”

Mom brought everything outside and started to have dinner. My grandpa had the habit of eating rice and milk at last while finishing dinner. Grandpa was having food outside and mom went to kitchen and started collecting dishes, dad was washing his hands nearby. Suddenly grand pa fell down in bed, mom noticed it immediately.

Mom hurried outside, called dad and dad came with a glass of water and kept my grand pa in his lap and gave him water.

But nothing happened. Grand pa looked my dad and mom with a smile and then he tried to open his mouth but he was unable to speak. Grandpa eyes were full of tears as he was unable to say his last words.

 He simply looked with tears and left the world forever. Both started crying. All villagers gathered and started funeral procedure. They informed my uncles and aunts and other relatives that my grand pa was no more.

It makes me think how I will die. What will be my last words if I will be able to speak?

Would I have capacity to smile?

Would I will be that much lucky that I will get such loving son and daughter in law near my death bed?

I want to die like a legend. At that day I want to die with full rejoice.

My grandpa struggled a lot. He was parent less. Some villagers tried to kill him for property as there was no one to claim. He must have smiled remembering he challenged in his own way, survived and now he has son to burn his death body for funeral.

I want to die with rejoice. I don’t care if the whole world cries. At my birth date they might have smiled, at my every success they might have celebrated but at my death I must smile not caring what they will do.

I think what if I die today. Will my objective of life be accomplished? No not at all

I have big responsibility towards my parents. They wasted their whole life just to educate me, to fulfill my dreams and long list of wishes. They never raised a question, just supported me. In their old age I also want to support them without raising any question.

I have to be good citizen for my nation, good son to my parents, good brother for my brother and sister, loving friend to my loving parents, good father to my loving children and a loving darling to my wife.

In my deathbed I want to see my enemy crying with regret and I also want to see everyone crying and they will really miss me and I want to reply them with a giant smile.

I must contribute for others rather than only my family. Although it is very small I want to contribute for society and nation.

Today, I know none of the relative cares us because we don’t have anything to give. In other words, they don’t help just because we can’t give anything.

Just some weeks ago, my father said just ask some money saying you(i) want to buy laptop. Although, I had bank deposit I asked them. All turned deaf. One didn’t reply, one said I will send in case I will go to Male (lie), one said I will think from next month salary (lie), one said I just paid fees of my child. They get nice reason for not giving.

When I said these things to my father then he taught me lesson none of your relative are your own unless you have something big, something more than them.

But I won’t do that. Before going to dead bed, I will help unconditionally as far as I could. Either by sharing hands or aiding financially.

I want to die meaningfully. My grandfather took nothing with him. Nor would I. it’s the rule of nature, so I will not hesitate to give if I could.

In my death bed I want to smile. Just say my son and daughter to live life peacefully and be less materialistic.  Say my friends’ thanks a lot to make my life so happy. Say my relatives have a nice life and my enemies’ good bye and die.

© Dipendra Prasad Poudel